magneticmary

I should probably just write something out so I can remember this next year

-Brevard - ??? Auditioned in DECEMBER, should find out soon
-Miami Salzburg - ???, should find out soon, sent CD
-Lucca - ??? Auditioned in March, should find out soon, won't go even if I do get in because it's waaaay too expensive.

-Oberlin - Arezzo Program - Auditioned in February, Sang Batti and Deh Vieni, Accepted to weird Concert group in late February, probably won't do it
- Music in the Marche - Auditioned in Jan, Sang DV and a little Batti, Accepted in Feb, May do

-Seagle - didn't get in, found out in late February, sent CD
-Aspen - didn't get in, found out mid-February auditioned live, sang Monica and Batti
-Bay View - didn't get in, found out in late Feb, auditioned with Many a New Day and Gretchen


RECITAL APRIL 11TH!

and I might be taking a 5th year.


That's all.

Love,
Mary

GIVE ME A BREAK HEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRE

So every time Robert Goulet comes on, it cheers me up.

There's nothing wrong with me, I'm just a little irked with people.

I don't like flakes, negativity and arrogance. I don't like when people put up unnecessary walls.


I have a lot to say, but I guess the most bizarre thing is that this semester was supposed to be my easy semester, and I don't know if it was. While I have had more time, I don't know if I used it correctly.



This entry is really boring. I'll try to do better soon...?


Love,
Mary

This is my last entry as a teenager... I turn 20 (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) tomorrow at 12:06 PM.
Goodbye, youth!!!

(I'm just being dramatic. I mean it's the truth, but it's not that dramatic.)

AHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

Okay, maybe it is.


Love,
Mary

I have too many thoughts right now, and they're not making sense...

People always surprise me. I don't really get people most of the time. I think I am totally analyzing and A-okay and right on track, and then a massive fork will be thrown into my carefully and systematically flawlessly thought out plan for whom/whatever the subject is, and I will have to start over with my process. People constantly, totally, and thoroughly (SIDENOTE: the words "through" and "thorough" have given me trouble for the longest time... it took me longer than I'd like to admit to anyone to confess how many different ways I tried to spell "thoroughly" just now before I settled on the right spelling... anyway, back to people) surprise me.

Is every action performed for attention? Can we safely say that people's decisions are based on their desire for a response to the action by another person? When I watch the kids, they get such gratification out of doing something and showing the teacher. Would the kid have done whatever action if the teacher wasn't there to see it?

Now I've come to the next thought, which is an old one that's been wrung out, dried, folded, worn, torn, and washed since decades before I was born - if a tree falls in the middle of an abandoned, lifeless wood, does it make a noise?

My answer is yes. Even if we personally can't hear it, the butterfly effect occurs - the tree falls, which causes a nearby bird to fly away, who then gets eaten by a hawk, who chokes and dies and falls into a river, where he is carried downstream, etc. etc. etc. Now, I'm sure that someone could argue that with the focus on the word "lifeless", but no woods are ever lifeless, so that's a contradiction in and of itself... so does the arguement even exist? AHH I have no idea. I should take a philosophy class... except that I am a music major, therefore, all my brain cells go to singing and being fabulous.

Okay, enough of that. I know I'm going to roll my eyes when I look back at this entry... but I also know that part of me has these same questions inside that never get answered well enough to satisfy me because... maybe it's just my self-victimizing complex, (which, objectively, I can see, but at the same time I personally still don't really FEEL it) but I think people like to give me the short summary answers to things instead of the details.

But I am detail-oriented. If I am motivated to seek some sort of information, it eats and eats and eats at me until I find it or the interest dissipates... I like to think it's the former more than the latter, of course. What I'm trying to say is that I have to find things for myself. It's been that way for a long time, ever since Mom couldn't help me with my math homework anymore and since Bobby started coming to me for help in his homework... I realized that, as Sebastian said, "If you want someting done, you've got to do it yo'self."

The OTHER half of me knows that without people in the world to help me, I would be absolutely nothing. Because (and this is huuuge!) - that aforementioned motivation, the fire, is lit by the desire to illicit reactions from those people who I care about. This is an essential of who I am. But what if I'm alone? Do I have enough self-motivation to get me where I am driven to go?

That's the question, and I have to, have to, HAVE TO feel the confident YES! in response.

Those same people say that I'm too hard on myself about a lot of things, but I'm not so sure. I feel like I'm at least majority right on that last little nugget of self-analysis.

If my life would have been slightly different, I would have been a psychiatrist.

Speaking of academia, I CANNOT WAIT to go back to school. K-12, I got worked up about buying new school supplies (markers, backpack, Trapper Keeper, etc.) But now, it's even more exciting, because I go furniture/home decor shopping and I LOVE IT! Ikea is a God send, especially because I am in a huuuge room this year.

Briefly about 321 - I love this residence with all of my heart. Even though it will prove to be only a blotch in my (sure to be) long history of residences, it's so college to me! This is my last year here, though. I'm sure of it, because I wouldn't want to live there with a different group of people and it's just going to be time to haul out and find a new place to love! That said, this past semester (and summer, really) was r-o-u-g-h ROUGH on the tenants of the Law Offices. I look for and dwell upon the good that I find in people that I become close to, despite when the general sentiment is that the good is buried quite deep within. I don't like to burn bridges; however, I feel cowardly if I don't stand up for what I feel is right in any given situation. In this sense, I have been torn. I guess what I want most is peace, even though whenever I think too much I get this condensed fury in my stomach. Not healthy - probably an ulcer, right?

Okay, enough. Sophomore year was fantastic - MUCH better than sophomore year of high school! (See: www.deadjournal.com/users/m_squared/ for more details.) Better shows, better classes, closer with friends, 321, the CRUISE!, and, of course, the reigning champion - EUROPE. I'd say that most of the time, I don't realize how lucky I am.

THIS SEMESTER will be fantastic because I have great new digs with some of my best friends, the chance to be in La Boheme (maybe? or UMGASS, we'll see...), the chance to study with MELODY (I'm nervous about that. It'll go away, but I'm allowed to be nervous for now) season football tickets (YESS!!! ROW 45!!!), easiest academic schedule yet, MAYBE A CAR????, a job at St. Ken's, and I am decided - future = music. That in and of itself is the best decision ever.

MONDAY:
10:00 - 11:00 - Jazz (So excited to take this class! Don't know anyone in it. Even better.)
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235 (Because I WANT more French! Can't wait - already ordered my books!)
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir (Recently listened to the recordings of past favorites on CTools because I am THAT big of a nerd. Believe it.)

TUESDAY:
10:30 - 12:30 - Acting 102 (w/SJG AGAIN! Most of the same crew again, too. Should be interesting, as always.)
12:30 - 1:30 - Musicology Upper-Level: Music, Pop, Politics and Culture (w/Clague who taught 140 - very interesting and willing to debate things. Shouldn't be too hard, and actually interesting material, so I can't wait. Problem = Acting ends at 12:30 in the Walgreen and Musicology starts at 12:40 in the Bell Tower. Good luck to me and whoever else is along for THAT ride!)
2:00 - 4:00 - Conducting - (SCARED! No clue what to expect, and I don't think I'll be any good...)

WEDNESDAY
10:00 - 11:00 - Jazz
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir
4:45 - 6:00 - Studio (SCARED AGAIN! This will be a HUGE change for me.)

THURSDAY
10:30 - 12:30 - Acting 102
12:30 - 1:30 - Musicology 4...something
2:00 - 4:00 - Conducting

FRIDAY
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir

ALSO TO BE ADDED: 1 hour voice lesson, 1/2 hour coaching w/accompanist, and 1 hour piano lessons with ELISE! (So necessary. It's definitely time for me to LEARN this instrument!)

Now, I can go to bed because I got all these thoughts out. I could keep going, but I don't want to be a Bouncy-thought Bertha or anything.... right???

Love,
Mary

P.S. I meant to make a list of things I want to do this semester, so here they are:
1. APPLE ORCHARD/HAUNTED HOUSE-ING FOR MY BIRTHDAY!
2. CEDAR POINT
3. Be outside more!
4. Have a picnic!
5. Play more soccer!
6. BE MORE FOCUSED ON MY FUTURE AS A SINGER (i.e. less procrastination, more self-motivation!)

P.P.S. Aimee, D'Ellen, Erin, Elise, and I all go Up North and take over Steve and Linda's cottage in T-Minus 66 hours and 8 minutes!! YESS!!!

P.P.P.S. Just ordered from Amazon: Mary Poppins Orig'l London Cast Recording, Hairspray OBCR, Aladdin DVD (to replace my missing/stolen one), Renée Fleming

I have too many thoughts right now, and they're not making sense...

People always surprise me. I don't really get people most of the time. I think I am totally analyzing and A-okay and right on track, and then a massive fork will be thrown into my carefully and systematically flawlessly thought out plan for whom/whatever the subject is, and I will have to start over with my process. People constantly, totally, and thoroughly (SIDENOTE: the words "through" and "thorough" have given me trouble for the longest time... it took me longer than I'd like to admit to anyone to confess how many different ways I tried to spell "thoroughly" just now before I settled on the right spelling... anyway, back to people) surprise me.

Is every action performed for attention? Can we safely say that people's decisions are based on their desire for a response to the action by another person? When I watch the kids, they get such gratification out of doing something and showing the teacher. Would the kid have done whatever action if the teacher wasn't there to see it?

Now I've come to the next thought, which is an old one that's been wrung out, dried, folded, worn, torn, and washed since decades before I was born - if a tree falls in the middle of an abandoned, lifeless wood, does it make a noise?

My answer is yes. Even if we personally can't hear it, the butterfly effect occurs - the tree falls, which causes a nearby bird to fly away, who then gets eaten by a hawk, who chokes and dies and falls into a river, where he is carried downstream, etc. etc. etc. Now, I'm sure that someone could argue that with the focus on the word "lifeless", but no woods are ever lifeless, so that's a contradiction in and of itself... so does the arguement even exist? AHH I have no idea. I should take a philosophy class... except that I am a music major, therefore, all my brain cells go to singing and being fabulous.

Okay, enough of that. I know I'm going to roll my eyes when I look back at this entry... but I also know that part of me has these same questions inside that never get answered well enough to satisfy me because... maybe it's just my self-victimizing complex, (which, objectively, I can see, but at the same time I personally still don't really FEEL it) but I think people like to give me the short summary answers to things instead of the details.

But I am detail-oriented. If I am motivated to seek some sort of information, it eats and eats and eats at me until I find it or the interest dissipates... I like to think it's the former more than the latter, of course. What I'm trying to say is that I have to find things for myself. It's been that way for a long time, ever since Mom couldn't help me with my math homework anymore and since Bobby started coming to me for help in his homework... I realized that, as Sebastian said, "If you want someting done, you've got to do it yo'self."

The OTHER half of me knows that without people in the world to help me, I would be absolutely nothing. Because (and this is huuuge!) - that aforementioned motivation, the fire, is lit by the desire to illicit reactions from those people who I care about. This is an essential of who I am. But what if I'm alone? Do I have enough self-motivation to get me where I am driven to go?

That's the question, and I have to, have to, HAVE TO feel the confident YES! in response.

Those same people say that I'm too hard on myself about a lot of things, but I'm not so sure. I feel like I'm at least majority right on that last little nugget of self-analysis.

If my life would have been slightly different, I would have been a psychiatrist.

Speaking of academia, I CANNOT WAIT to go back to school. K-12, I got worked up about buying new school supplies (markers, backpack, Trapper Keeper, etc.) But now, it's even more exciting, because I go furniture/home decor shopping and I LOVE IT! Ikea is a God send, especially because I am in a huuuge room this year.

Briefly about 321 - I love this residence with all of my heart. Even though it will prove to be only a blotch in my (sure to be) long history of residences, it's so college to me! This is my last year here, though. I'm sure of it, because I wouldn't want to live there with a different group of people and it's just going to be time to haul out and find a new place to love! That said, this past semester (and summer, really) was r-o-u-g-h ROUGH on the tenants of the Law Offices. I look for and dwell upon the good that I find in people that I become close to, despite when the general sentiment is that the good is buried quite deep within. I don't like to burn bridges; however, I feel cowardly if I don't stand up for what I feel is right in any given situation. In this sense, I have been torn. I guess what I want most is peace, even though whenever I think too much I get this condensed fury in my stomach. Not healthy - probably an ulcer, right?

Okay, enough. Sophomore year was fantastic - MUCH better than sophomore year of high school! (See: www.deadjournal.com/users/m_squared/ for more details.) Better shows, better classes, closer with friends, 321, the CRUISE!, and, of course, the reigning champion - EUROPE. I'd say that most of the time, I don't realize how lucky I am.

THIS SEMESTER will be fantastic because I have great new digs with some of my best friends, the chance to be in La Boheme (maybe? or UMGASS, we'll see...), the chance to study with MELODY (I'm nervous about that. It'll go away, but I'm allowed to be nervous for now) season football tickets (YESS!!! ROW 45!!!), easiest academic schedule yet, MAYBE A CAR????, a job at St. Ken's, and I am decided - future = music. That in and of itself is the best decision ever.

MONDAY:
10:00 - 11:00 - Jazz (So excited to take this class! Don't know anyone in it. Even better.)
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235 (Because I WANT more French! Can't wait - already ordered my books!)
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir (Recently listened to the recordings of past favorites on CTools because I am THAT big of a nerd. Believe it.)

TUESDAY:
10:30 - 12:30 - Acting 102 (w/SJG AGAIN! Most of the same crew again, too. Should be interesting, as always.)
12:30 - 1:30 - Musicology Upper-Level: Music, Pop, Politics and Culture (w/Clague who taught 140 - very interesting and willing to debate things. Shouldn't be too hard, and actually interesting material, so I can't wait. Problem = Acting ends at 12:30 in the Walgreen and Musicology starts at 12:40 in the Bell Tower. Good luck to me and whoever else is along for THAT ride!)
2:00 - 4:00 - Conducting - (SCARED! No clue what to expect, and I don't think I'll be any good...)

WEDNESDAY
10:00 - 11:00 - Jazz
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir
4:45 - 6:00 - Studio (SCARED AGAIN! This will be a HUGE change for me.)

THURSDAY
10:30 - 12:30 - Acting 102
12:30 - 1:30 - Musicology 4...something
2:00 - 4:00 - Conducting

FRIDAY
11:00 - 12:00 - French 235
1:00 - 2:30 - U Choir

ALSO TO BE ADDED: 1 hour voice lesson, 1/2 hour coaching w/accompanist, and 1 hour piano lessons with ELISE! (So necessary. It's definitely time for me to LEARN this instrument!)

Now, I can go to bed because I got all these thoughts out. I could keep going, but I don't want to be a Bouncy-thought Bertha or anything.... right???

Love,
Mary

P.S. I meant to make a list of things I want to do this semester, so here they are:
1. APPLE ORCHARD/HAUNTED HOUSE-ING FOR MY BIRTHDAY!
2. CEDAR POINT
3. Be outside more!
4. Have a picnic!
5. Play more soccer!
6. BE MORE FOCUSED ON MY FUTURE AS A SINGER (i.e. less procrastination, more self-motivation!)

P.P.S. Aimee, D'Ellen, Erin, Elise, and I all go Up North and take over Steve and Linda's cottage in T-Minus 66 hours and 8 minutes!! YESS!!!

P.P.P.S. Just ordered from Amazon: Mary Poppins Orig'l London Cast Recording, Hairspray OBCR, Aladdin DVD (to replace my missing/stolen one), Renée Fleming's The Inner Voice or something, and a bunch of interesting sounding French books (better dictionary, colloquialisms, thesaurus, grammar)!

Remember how I went to Europe and didn't bother to write in this for about two months afterward?

Yeah, me too.

struggle/va in bestia!/Scar on my knee (hopefully)/You were WATCHING!/Hector/Cora/Rosita/Helen/Bruno/Nino/The Freeds/Firenze/Il Duomo/Siena/Cinque Terre/Hydrate Hydrate Hope/Venezia/Peter/Roma/When in.../Vienna/Carrie getting scared of a spider very loudly/Munich/Salzburg/Paris/Amsterdam/At least seven.../Budapest/Dachau/Silverware and napkin museum/Sissy/Hofbrauhaus/Ich muchte ein.../Vorrei/Je voudrais/Bratwurst/Wine/Beer/Radler/Prosciutto e melone/Tomatoes/Pesto/Gelato/Knockoff purses/Layering/Calcio/Lemon trees/The seven Fs of backpacking - focus/forward/fingere/friendship/fun/fiero/fire/The Sound of Music tour/Climb Every Mountain/Hostels/Baby-sized pretzels/Shout wipes/Labello/Esselunga/Pan di Stelle/EVERYTHING that we did that I can't list here/Elise/Jonathan/Nathan/Zach/Sarah/Andrew/Claudio/Catherine/Carrie/Liesel/Caroline/Kevin/Gospel voice/La Separazione/St. Ita's Vision/Fiordiligi/Cosi Quintet/Countessa/Figaro/Sull'Aria/Zerlina/La ci darem la mano.../Don Giovanni/Elisetta/Cimarosa Quintet/Il Matrimonio Segreto Quintet.

I can't even begin to express how much that trip meant to me. It has been worth all the hours I have put in at Lifetime/BOREDOM CITY, MICHIGAN since then.

In other news, I will hopefully be getting a car soon.

LIST OF MOVIES I'VE SEEN THIS SUMMER
POTC 3 (GREAT!)
Transformers
License to Wed (BOOO)
Harry Potter 5
The Simpsons Movie (Today. SOOO good.)

I think there's more, but that's all I can think of at the moment. The Harry Potter BOOK VII came out, which was absolutely incredible. Mixed feelings about the ending/Epilogue, but I guess only time will tell if we will be seeing more of Harry Potter. I BAWLED MY EYES OUT. And finished it in one day to avoid people spoiling it for me.

The weird thing that very few people seem to understand is that my specific generation GREW UP with Harry Potter. As a 19-year-old, this, the final book, came out during what can be considered the last summer of my childhood. Sappy and corny, I know, but it's TRUE! I cried for a lot of things at the end of the book, including the fact that only 3 chapters stood between me and the end of an era!

August is going to be a great month. Lo just left, and my room is looking great so far - lots to do, but still looks great... hopefully going to Cedar Point on Tuesday, and then the cottage trip with my girls the weekend after. Today, I'm going to see the BLFAC Homecoming Choir concert in AA with Mike and this weekend is the SRB Class of 2001 Reunion Party (??!!!)

I'm going to be in Italy - I leave tomorrow and I'm there until June 14th. Between June 14th and the 26th I'll be BACKPACKING.

I can't even believe it. I don't think it has sunk in yet.

However, between Italy and I lies the following flight/train/taxi itinerary:
5/13
3:10 PM Depart Detroit → Boston Flight NW 370
5:09 PM Arrive Boston (Logan International Airport)
7:10 PM Depart Boston → Amsterdam Flight NW 38

5/14
8:10 AM Arrive Amsterdam (Shiphol Airport)
12:10 PM Depart Amsterdam → London (Gatwick Airport) *British Airways Flight 8114
12:20 PM Arrive London
3:55 PM Depart London → Pisa Flight 261
7:00 PM Arrive Pisa
7:53 - HOPEFULLY I'll catch this train to Florence
9:23 - HOPEFULLY I'll be getting off of this train in one piece with no luggage stolen
10:00ish - HOPEFULLY WILL BE FINALLY AT THE VILLA BY 10:00 THE NEXT NIGHT.

Say a prayer that nothing gets stolen/lost/delayed!


Also, here's my address in case anyone feels so inclined as to write me anything :)
Mary Martin
Villa Corsi-Salviati
Via Antonio Gramsci 460
50019 Sesto Fiorentino (Firenze) ITALY

Ciao!

Mucho amore,
Mary

Done with my sophomore year!!!!! HOLLA

...I think the title speaks for itself.

Furthermore, I love that I finally, finally, FINALLY have a new studio home for next year! YAY!!!

In a pretty good mood, despite the looming Musicology 240 and 140 storm clouds.

About to lunch and nap... more later if I feel like it.

19 DAYS TIL FIRENZE!?!?!? where the HELL did this trip come from?

Don't care. Too excited to care.


Love,
Mary

Soundheim's ASSASSINS was a great, great, great show.

I shouldn't go into parties with objectives because then I will end up sick and passed out and apparently locked in the bathroom with the costumer (poor girl!)

I've made the decision to drop out of LS&A and focus just on music. The moment I made this decision, my life became a better place. And to those of you who wonder what I'm going to do with a degree in music, what are YOU going to do with a degree in Anthropology? Go to grad school and then try to find a job. So there's your answer. I'm going to get my Master's in Music and then get a job doing something I absolutely adore.

Everybody's got the right to be different
If you wanna be - different

Everybody's got the right
To their dreams!!!

Furthermore, I'm going to Florence, Italy for a month with some of my best friends and then we're backpacking. Work will be the means to an end. This summer will be terrific, because why wouldn't it be?

Right now, at this moment, I'm sitting in my slanted, 163-year-old house in a room dominated by an elongated octagon-shaped table with a mistletoe Yankee candle burning and two of my wonderful roommates, each of us lost in our own laptops. Today I woke up in a place I didn't recognize, got a test back with a muchmuchlessthandesirable grade, and am late on an assignment for which my teacher already gave me an extension. It was an absolutely BEAUTIFUL day and my friends are amazing and I had my annual start-of-good-weather Strawberries and Créme Frappucino from Starbucks. In 20 years, I willl remember ALL of this with a smile.

I think I am finally starting to BEGIN to understand that life is what you make it. Granted, I have a longlonglong way to go, but the future is starting to make me happy instead of just terrifying me.

Sorry. This is what happens when I don't write in this for awhile. Most people think on-line journals and things are just really really nerdy. Most of me agrees with them, but I love having this to write whatever ever ever I want.

And just as a disclosure, please don't worry about me from the last entry about how much I hate myself. I think it's funny now - I was in an angry-drunk mood. We've all been there, we just all haven't had the... opportunity of being in front of a computer when the mood strikes.

I love you mo-ore,
Mary

(I've been drinking tonight. Get over it and accept it here and now.)

I NEED TO STOP BEING SUCH A PATHETIC EXCUSE FOR A:

1. Sister
2. Voice student
3. Daughter
4. FRIEND
5. Catholic
6. Michigan student
7. Girl
8. A calm person
9. Pet owner
10. PERSON

I got into Florence. I can't afford it. AT ALL.

Love,
Mary

10 Days, 14 hours. That's it. Hallelujah and Thank you, sweet baby Jesus!!!

Anyway, I'm in airline overload right now, so please ignore the following quiz (they're more fun for me to read 4 years later than they'll ever be for anyone to read). Thanks Marilee!

A - Available: In most ways
A - Age: 19
A - Annoyance: When people don't do their dishes and when NWA tries to take your money
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B - Best feature: Haha "I don't have one"
B - Beer: Heineken
B - Birthday: October 26th
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C - Crush: Megan Bays (V-Day was the one year anniversary of our "It's Complicated" relationship on Facebook!)
C - Car: I share a Focus with my mom in the summer. Other than that, nothing. wah waaaah
C - Candy: Message hearts, milk chocolate
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D - Day or night: Day because sometimes I feel like I get depressed when there isn't any sunlight.
D - Dream Car: Anything bright red with a leather interior and that is accident-proof. And apparates.
D - Dogs or Cats: DOGS DUH!!!
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E - Egg Nog: No. thanks.
F - Favorite Colors: Pink, blue
F - Favorite Band: I guess Panic
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G - Gummy Bears or Worms: OOOh, tough call... I guess I'd say bears but they each have their time
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H - Hair Color: light brown w/bright blonde highlights, although less than last year.
H - Height: 6'5"
H - Happy: On the outside. And mostly on the inside, although I like to be dramatic and think that I'm not really. Although sometimes I actually DO get sad.
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I - Ice Cream: Stucchi's Banana Peanut Butter is pretty delish.
I - Idol: I want to be a mix between Kristen Chenoweth and Anna Netrebko. Wish me luck. :)
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J - Job: Student!!!! YAY!!!! Also singer wherever the wind blows me.
J - Jail: Hahaha probably one day.
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K - Kids: Chloe Jane Moira Angela Darling Martin. She is my child.
K - Kickboxing or Karate: I tried Kickboxing and it was boring. Karate would be fun. I'm a huge nerd.
K - Kindergarten: I stole stuff in Kindergarten. Then my teacher caught on. It was a my little pony with posable legs and a little yellow bird with long, pink hair. Sorry if they were yours.
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L - Longest Car Ride: #1 = Carnegie Hall, NYC, 2003. Getting there was the longest trip OF MY LIFE. #2 = Florida, on the way back when Erin was asleep and I stayed awake the whole time. #3 = All the Minnesota trips. They were pretty brutal.
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M - Milk Flavour: SKIM SONNNN
M - Most Missed Memory: Like, that I wish I could remember and can't? I guess it'd be pretty cool to remember your first words. But I don't MISS that memory because I never had it....?
M - Movie Last Watched: Dear me... I wanted to watch Austin Powers tonight. But I guess that's not the question. I can't remember...I guess the last movie beginning to end was Sister Act 2.
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N - Number of tattoos: hahahaha I couldn't decide, although lately...
N - Nicknames: MaryMartin (one word), Martine Moore, Mare, MareMare, Bare
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O - One Wish: Love (I erased Fame)
O - One Regret: The car accident
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P - Part Of Your Appearance You Like Best: BLAH I HATE APPEARANCE QUESTIONS but probably my hair...
P - Piercings: None. I'm boring
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Q - Quick or Slow?: Both have their place!!
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R - Reason To Smile: I have pretty awesome friends. And the cruise is in 10 days.
R - Reality TV Show: AMERICAN IDOL, What Not to Wear (does this count?), Project Runway
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S - Song Last Heard: Track 12 on the mix Courtney made me :)
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T - Time Now: 1:46 AM
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U - Unpredictable: Life and many decision-making variables (the latter was out of my Psych reading. BLAH)
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V - Vegetables You Love: string beans
V - Vacation Spot: Yikes... I can't wait to go to Italy (if I get in)! That's not really a vacation though.
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W- Worst Habit: Procrastinating, self-confidence (only in some areas)
W- Where Are You Going To Travel Next: LOS ANGELES, ACAPULCO, PUERTO VALLERTA, IXTAPA, AND CABO!!!
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X - X-ray: Gives me cancer? Hopefully not.
X - X-men: I remember my brother telling me they were going to make it into a movie and that Storm (MY action figure) was going to be played by Whoopi Goldberg. Mind you, this was when I was like 7. I, of course, believed him.
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Y - Year it is now: 2007
Y - Yellow: Insanity, looks good with a tan, my comforter, the sun
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Z - Zoo Animal: I like all the underappreciated, forgotten zoo animals that no one really stops to look at but really really would love to chat. Those are my favorites.

what's a fire?
and why does it-
what's the word-
burn?





when's it my turn?





((----------------22 days, 5 hours, 25 minutes and counting---------------))
Love,
Mary

Thursday
-Sang at Uncle Billy's funeral. We love and miss you.

Friday
-Sang at Kirsch Wedding, Collage rehearsal
-Sang at FUSION Party
Kind of ruined my boots
Had my first major Wipe Out of 2007
Broke out the name tags and had an absolutely amazing time with the Class of 09... bitch.
-Sang along to the "Can I Borrow That Top" video on YouTube with Lucy

Saturday
-Sang at my audition
-Sang at Collage concert
-Sang at my Spontanteous After-Collage Party along with Sister Act II, where we casted the entire movie with School of Music people

Sunday
-Sang at callbacks
-Sang with glee as I picked up my new jeans and ordered a shirt-on-line
-Sang the blues when I realized that I have taken procrastination to a new level with my on-line antics
-Sang with EXCITEMENT with the e-mail of the Assassins cast list - MUSKET for Mary for another semester!

Love,
Mary

My mind is a beehive right now. I mean, I have no earthly reason to complain - I have a wonderful and caring group of family and friends who love me, I have a whole kitchen of food, the opportunity for an education in the subject that I'm ready to give my life to (sounds like marriage), and yet I can't help but feel like everything is going in fast forward and that I'm just watching it calmly and not really, really living.

I bought a picture at Urban Outfitters over break - I first saw it in Ann Arbor, and then they were gone and I was sad but calmed because I figured it wasn't meant to be. Then, we went to Somerset (home of everyone self-important and materialistic) and they still had some. It's the picture of a taxi in Times Square and the camera angle has the taxi in focus and everything else is blurry. I guess you'd have to see it - I'll show it to you if you want. It's hanging above my bed.

There is a point to that long and drawn-out description: I want life to be in focus. Dreams to be in color. I need to explore, to see dreams come true. I want to stop getting caught up in the little things and to.... you get the idea. Ha, can you tell I just saw The Fantasticks yesterday? I sound like Act I Luisa.

Maybe I need a good night's sleep, maybe I need to study abroad, maybe I just need something to divert my attention from my racous ruckus of daily life. I am going to NEED this cruise.

I just sound so young right now... all these vivid ideals and dreams that I'll probably laugh at in 20 years. I hope my future self will realize how sincere I am.

I'm only a teenager for less than 10 more months. 20 seems so old!! I'd like to say I'm not at all afraid of the future, but I feel like whatever happens now is going to seal in my character for good. "Youth is wasted on the young..." I guess so.

Yikes. These definitely are bees - swarming, buzzing... you don't really know why they're following you, and all you know is you don't want to be stung.


Love,
Mary

P.S. I'm not surprised if this doesn't make sense to anyone but myself.

1. What did you do in 2006 that you'd never done before?
Had an actual, taxes-taken-out-of-my-pay job.

2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Yes, and this year's resolutions are: (I'm thinking of them right now) 1. LESS PROCRASTINATING 2. BETTER GRADES (this will be a result of #1) 3. BE NICER TO PEOPLE 4.LOSE WHAT NEEDS TO BE LOST

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope

4. Did anyone close to you die?
Bo Schembechler

5. What foreign countries did you visit?
None!! BUT I have been planning for the big visit to Mexico - but that's for 2007

6. What would you like to have in 2007 that you lacked in 2006?
More self-control, a female voice teacher

7. What date from 2006 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
When I got cast in Singin' in the Rain!!!! also, the night that Catherine, Jonathan and I slept overnight, in the cold rain, with just a sleeping bag, a bunch of garbage bags, and 3 umbrellas for the RSC tickets

8. What was your biggest achievement of this year?
Making it through my Freshman year of college, Singin' in the Rain, losing weight

9. What was your biggest failure?
My grades

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
I got majorly sick once in March-ish and once in November

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Wow - that's really a tough question.... I guess a house, but I didn't really buy that myself.

12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
Jonathan Christopher, Patrick

13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Lori

14. Where did most of your money go?
The mall, Staches, and a 8-day cruise!!! (to be taken in 2007)

15. What did you get really, really excited about?
Going back to school, my light at the end of the tunnel, losing weight, Singin' in the Rain, my house with the Enoch James girls, acting class, Sex and the City, What Not to Wear, my cruise, getting better at French

16. What songs will always remind you of 2006?
"The I Love You Song" - Spelling Bee, anything Michael Bublé, "I Won't Say I'm in Love" - Hercules, "The Trouble With Love Is" - Kelly Clarkson, "Take Me or Leave Me" - Rent, anything Mikado, Singin' in the Rain, or Wizard of Oz.

17. Compared to this time last year:
i. are you happier or sadder? At this exact moment I'm sadder, but overall - I would like to think happier... actually, I think it's just sadder. My answer is sadder.

ii. thinner or fatter? thinner

iii. richer or poorer? poorer

iv. older or wiser? Older

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
Homework, Managing time, working out

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
Facebook, whining, being mean, being lazy

20. How will you be spending New Years Eve?
With Friends!

21. Did you fall in love in 2006?
Hahah... I fall in "love" every year.

23. What was your favourite TV program?
Sex and the City, What Not to Wear, Ghost Hunters, Most Haunted, I Shouldn't Be Alive, Passport to Europe

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
Yeah, even though it's not good.

25. What was the best book you read?
I'm in the middle of a really good book called The Book Thief, and it looks promising - other than that, I would say My Sister's Keeper

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Hugo Wolfe

27. What did you want and get?
Ugg boots, a new camera, purses... on a non-materialistic level - a circle of non-SOM, non-high school college friends, I earned my own money,

28. What did you want and not get?
a car and a new voice teacher (I'm cool with both situations, though :) )

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
Love Actually - it didn't really come out this year, but I discovered it this year! Other than that, I LOVED The Holiday, and I'm seeing Dreamgirls tonight!

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 19 and I had an awesome day! - performed my colorful whore/conservative writer scene with Andrew in acting class actually, carved pumpkins and had SYLVIO's (another amazing 2006 discovery) and then had rehearsal!!!

31. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
Winning a Tony, hahaha.... umm probably more realizing how lucky I am... not getting caught up in what I DON'T have

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2006?
This year I ignored the trends that don't work for me, like leggings by themselves (I prefer actual PANTS) and really long sweaters (I'm only 5'1" - kind of a no-brainer that I'll look like a perfect rectangle), I succumbed to other more practical trends (UGGS - they're too warm and comfy to ignore). I'm trying to create my own style, but I have a lot of basics, a lot of cardigans, and above all, the FIT has to be perfect and flattering.

33. What kept you sane?
Chloe Jane Moira Angela Darling, My mom, Elise Turner, Diane Kargol, Sex and the City, sleep, bottled water, Burt's Bees chapstick, Orbitz gum, my planner

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Johnny Depp, bien sûr!!!!

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Proposal 2

36. Who did you miss?
Um...a lot of people. I'm going to take the vague approach on this one.

37. Who was the best new person you met?
All the kids I worked with

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2006.
If you want something bad enough, you won't sit around and mope about it. Life is what you make it, and you really gotta grab the bull by the balls if you want it.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"I had quietly packed...."

Love,
Mary

P.S. It was a great year, 2006!!!

Yeah.... not really journaling as much as in the past, eh? It's been almost a month I think!

I'm using this as a procrastination tool because I don't want to study for Theory 249. And while we're on the subject, please indulge me - - -
so there's two sections of this class - 9:30 AM with Gosman, and 11:30 with Petty. Not only did I have to be in the earlier of the two (NOT by choice, believe me), but our class has an actual final while 11:30 has a TAKE HOME.

WOW. I'm not exactly pleased with this situation.

I just want a B in this godforsaken class. I really hate theory and cannot WAIT to be done with it!!! NOT TO MENTION having this class over with... I don't want to go into details for fear of sounding like a self-victimizing ass, but Gosman doesn't like me. We're leaving it at that, I think.

I do like him better than Everett, though.

My schedule for next year:

MONDAY
8:30-9:30 - Musicology 240
9:30-10:30 - Musicology 140
11:30-12:30 - Written Theory 250 (I switched sections. Most definitely.)
1:00-2:30 - U Choir (Gonna be Verdi's Requiem, which is awesome, but Doc only once/week is not cool)

TUESDAY
9:30-10:30 - Aural Theory 240
1:00-2:00 - Psych 111 Lecture
4:00-5:00 - Volcanoes and Earthquakes (YESS! I'm so excited for this class. It's a 1-credit minicourse that only lasts until 2/22 and it gets me out of Studio!)

WEDNESDAY (Busiest day on the PLANET)
8:30-2:30 - Same as Monday, but add...
2:30-3:30 - Voice Lesson
5:00-7:00 - Psych 111 Discussion

THURSDAY
9:30-10:30 - Aural Theory 240
10:30-12:30 - Back to Back Musicology Discussions, 240 then 140
1:00-2:00 - Psych 111 Lecture
4:00-5:00 - Volcanoes and Earthquakes (until 2/22)

FRIDAY (LOVE my Fridays!!)
11:30-12:30 - Written Theory 250
1:00-2:30 - U Choir

---So there you have it. 18 credits, and no French for the first time in 5.5 years.
And, the reason I'm taking both Musicologys is because I don't ever want to take that class again... I don't want to take 140 my senior year, which will be the case if I study abroad Winter 2008.
I can't WAIT for next semester... this is going to be the last hellishly early/packed semester that I ever have.

Alright, I'm going to go take a nap since that's how badly I don't want to study.

Love,
Mary

P.S. 68 Days (That's two months, a week and a day) until I'm in PARADISE. CANNOT NOT NOT NOT WAIT. (I'm really not saying this to brag, it's just because it's the only thing getting me through these classes.)

If you didn't see Singin' in the Rain.... that sucks.

I love it and I can't believe/am thankful that it's all over!!!

AND NOW WE PARTY!!!

When I think of breaks from school, I don't associate them with stress and bad days. Break is supposed to be one good day after another!!

Today was an exception.

The rest of break was great! Lots of shopping and spending time with B-ski - we even went out to a Monday night party in AA!!

Um, so I wake up this morning.

My camera, my darling little companion is cracked!! The screen is cracked and you can't see and I feel like I stabbed it with my heel. The killer thing is it wouldn't have even been an issue if I hadn't brought it to the party where I didn't even use it because I didn't put any batteries in it in the first place!!!! URGH.

Then, my darling mother threw away a box for my recalled battery from my computer. Thanks.

THEN, my optometrist tells me, a very healthy 18-year-old, that I may need READING GLASSES. To put on OVER my contacts. She referred to them as "helpers" and told me that they come in fun colors and patterns, even some with flowers on them! YAY!!!

TTHHEENNNNN, on my way home from the aforementioned abyss, the BORINGTAURUS! starts grinding - it feels like a body is being dragged underneath the car. As luck would have it, I am outside a dealership, and they tell me that the back break pad is completely GONE. So I drive home like a granny (maybe a chic one with flowers on her Helpers!!!) and am scared to death the entire way.

After that, I hit my head on the freezer

AND We booked the plane tickets for the cruise. We now have to leave the day before (not a bad thing) and come home the day AFTER - NOT cool, due to the fact that I will now be missing 2 days of school and Bobby will be missing, count 'em, 7.


I just have to keep telling myself not to whine and to be a big girl about all of this and that it could be a billion trillion times worse... but it's hard....


Love,
Mary